Remembering, Contemplating

Around this time last year I thought my world crumbled. I thought I made the greatest mistake in my life. So many 'I should have' and so many 'I will change', but to no avail. I sucked it all up and took the fall; Everything. Even when circumstances showed a different light.

But I learned it was not over. I survived be it what methods I took.
I changed, learning to never to take the same path again.

Even that did not change things.
It happened; again. Abeit a little different, but still the same.

And I finally let go; really come to terms with myself.




"Somewhere In The Middle"
Dishwalla

I was out the other day
and I saw you in your big black car
and I was waving as you were passing
cause I know who you are
you had this look that of an angel
it was such a bad disguise
did you think for second I would not realize

tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down
cause I'm somewhere in the middle of this

I was out the other night
and I saw you so we had a fight
it was late and I was lonely
and its such a long way home
so I asked you if you'd join me
for a single last call drink
so you turned and bought us 2
and you didn't even blink
you had this look that of an angel
it was such a bad disguise
when you drink it makes you angry
when I drink I want you more and more and more

tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down
and I'm somewhere in the middle of this

well I find it hard
I always tried to find the sane life
but I don't like the way things are
and I keep falling to my knees
somewhere in the middle of this